You came into this world,

full of hope and fragile beauty

and not breathing; panic in my heart,

alarm that something

was most terribly wrong

as the nurse ran out of the room

carrying a small delicate, my flimsy, boy

and I watched helpless as technical

help arrived and slowly, surely,

you gasped for air and you weren’t

as breakable I had imagined

for the longest minute of my life.

 

You decided to not breath again

when eating tea one night, in a rush,